My lord, I am so busy. It's awesome. Exhausting to the point where I frequently want to smash my head against the wall and put myself out of my exhasted misery, but still awesome. Time is flying by.
The boy is finally in Iraq. They were in Kuwait for a week longer than they were supposed to be, which of course made him super happy, but they finally made it there. He was about tired of all the planning he was doing in Kuwait and was ready to just get out of there and get his missions started. I got one e-mail from him in the 3 weeks since he left, but he called last week for my birthday and then again this week. So, hopefully him being in Iraq now means that I'll hear from him at least once every couple of weeks. Our conversations are pretty much just awkward bullshitting, but it's better than not talking to him at all.
Life here is nuts. Between being busy building the empire at work and keeping up with all my friends who never seem to rest, I'm running around like a crazy person. I cannot believe the boy has been gone for 4 months. The time has slipped right through my hands, but it's made it a lot easier to deal with him not being here. I am so incredibly lucky to have the people in my life that I do.
2 big things going on, though. One, I haven't really eaten in around a month. I'm losing weight so fast. I had to buy a bunch of new clothes because I was swimming in everything I owned. I haven't had an appetite since the boy left for Kuwait; whether it's because I'm so busy that I forget to eat or my nerves are just shot, I'm not sure. I've gotten used to the dizziness and sometimes irritability that it's brought about, but I know it's not a good thing. Shit, who am I kidding? It's the eating disorder, back with bells on! Lord, I'm so sick. My family is begging me to call my therapist, but I won't because she'd be on the phone with my shrink so fast, Baker Act-ing me into an inpatient clinic, which I can't go to because I have clients who need me. That's my excuse, anyway. It's sad when I know what's going on and I completely and totally ignore it. What can I say? I'm a nutcase right now.
The other big thing is that my best friend has a hot new girlfriend. She's never really liked girls before but evidently, she's now straddling the fence. She's freaking out because it's all sorts of new to her and is constantly calling me for advice, which I'm not in any position to really give because I've never dated a chick. It's hilarious. She called me the other day while I was at work and the only thing she said was, "I just think you should know that [hot new girlfriend] isn't manly. She's hot, like me. I'll call you later." Seriously, my life is so utterly weird sometimes. I almost feel guilty for converting her, because now the male species is missing out on her awesome self.
Sometimes, I step back and look at my life in all of its insanity and wonder if it's actually my life.